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will you love me once again ?

Friday, October 23, 2009, 9:47 AM

aww sorry readers that yesterday I never update my blog .
and now I'm here for updating my blog yea :]
anyway chyi went to Indonesia for a month , I might miss you babe !

goodluck yea babe :]
haha , anyway skipped school today as all my friends did it .
muahaha then woke up on 1.00pm !

after that crystal told me that need to go TBS fetch ice .
so prepare already , went to Subang and after fetched ice went to Pyramid .
oh no ! it was so damn bored in Pyramid doing nothing .

Pyramid really got nothing to play .
haha ! for me la .
cause everytime also go for pyramid , and now feel like nothing to play already .

anyway we went to Kim Gary for our lunch .
I ate the thing was so damn expensive if compare with crystal !
haha , it cost 20 bucks of my food + drink :P

and crystal only 10bucks plus , I don't know how much la but sure is 10 +
muahaha , after eating went to buy shoes .
before that we went to H2o to bought something then we only go ' lala street ' look for shoes .

but too bad , no one is suit for crystal :(
haha , after that saw victor .
he called me and I was like " huh ?"

hahahaha ! talked with him for awhile .
the stupid ice saw it and go home tell mom !?
bullshit you la ice , don't being kiddo there please :P

after ' lala stress ' then we went back home already .
cause ice said she too sleepy liao need to go home =.="
poor thing we had ! gosh ! D:

went back home came online .
chat with loads of people but I forgot who was them .
haha ! then went to bathed .

after bathed mom called me to prepare to going out for dinner at bukit tinggi .
well , she asked crystal that fetch ice & I to the store meet them first then only we go bukit tinggi .

before going to the store , we went to don't know who's house to gave her something .
then only we went to the store .
dad had hired two new malay girls for working .

oh no damn , I hate malay la !
shit it , plus they got face problem x.x
haha ! sorry , I know I'm rude dude :D

anyway , saw someone who made me moody .
fine , tried to not moody but I think I did it half =.="
then after that went to bukit tinggi to ate steamboat as our dinner .

aww too bad that today I never eat rice x.x
haha ! and now making me more and more hungry x.x
after dinner sure went back home lo .

until now , I'm still online .
too bad , damn hungry ! D:
drinking milo , but still hungry x.x

tomorrow I don't know mom will forget that I got tuition or not .
I hope she will forget , haha !
in tuition there I so damn alone wei !

no friends , no choice cause I'm new student there .
anyway I'm waiting november , cause shien babe might same tuition with me :D
I was so so so happy that I know that .

but then I more excited is next year I'll be meeting shirley babe again in tuition .
we will going to be same tuition again , loves you jek shirley :D
I hope can meet you there babe , miss you loads ! :D

anyway now chatting with qpenn the only one :P
haha ! and also plurking .
oh yea , I had changed my plurk layouts :)

wow , I love it damn much but don't know you guys will like it or not ( for those who also playing plurk )
and also know a girl who call nicole .

wait , the last post did I mention her name ?
haha ! however , once again ` nicole is really really kind & friendly
I just linked her , interested go view her blog bahs if you guys want to :)

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suddenly think of the thing which was happen in July , her .
damn , said sorry to her but she don't wanna to forgive me .
and she wrote at her blog that she don't want to forgive me because she got her reason .

but now , I cannot even view her blog now .
because she put it as private .
okay fine , I don't care about this .

I don't care that whether she will forgive me or not .
because I know she'll never forgive me , so I no need to hope anything also .
what for I want to hope that she will forgive me ?

If I do that , I know I'm a dumbass .
a dumbass is waiting for a person that never will forgive her to forgive !
what a bullshit is this ?

but now I only care that how good when we were together in school :D
a sweet memories , and now our friendship end it on July .
we laugh , we shared , we care , we played , we ate together in school

I started doing this to you since this year .
cause last year I heard some of the people said that you hate me .
so I don't want to join you because I know you hate me .

but this year , I heard some of the people said that you don't hate me already .
so I only joined you , and also you came from klang .
I thought both of us came from klang and we know what each other is thinking about .

but I was wrong , it isn't !
and do you still remember that night ?
we went to someone birthday party and after that I sat your car back .

before went back my home your parents fetched us to go old town ate something .
we laugh there loads ! and that was just a sweet memories .
in the car , your mom was talking loads of funny thing to us .

we share , and after that reached my home and you came down look at my dog .
you was calling my dog's name .
then after 10 minutes , you called me that help you find your shoes whether in my house or not.

cause you lost one of your shoes .
I still went out and find , but too bad ` don't have .
when I told you that don't have your shoes , we laugh like hell :D

and do you still remember we always meet in a restaurant ?
we always meet there , fate !
that was fate ! and now , I'm not going to the restaurant again .

I scare I will meet you once again and I don't know how to face you .
you were my best babe and now we are enemy .
how come all these thing can changed still so fast?

I hope that this thing never happen but too bad .
it's already happen on us .
this is the truth , we cannot change it .

and the truth is you will never ever to forgive me .
and what can I do if you don't want to forgive me ?
what I did you also feel that I'm so retarded !

the only thing I can do is stop disturbing your life .
I cannot even do anything , once I do a thing and I'm sure that loads of people will comment it .
I know , you wrote at your blog that you not going to forgive me and everyone treat you as a bad person cause you don't want to forgive me .

you still wrote that no one will stand you there help you think what's your feeling .
but are you sure there's no person will standing you there and help you ?
gosh , try and think ! around you those friends , who are them ?!

they are helping you and standing you there and no one standing me here !
fine , if no one standing me here and you'll forgive me , I okay !
I can say I want to be alone and you forgive me .

but , no one support me & all my best buddies are standing you there .
can you even think about my feeling ?
what if everyone treat you like now I'm !?

what you will feel it?
sad right ? but too bad that you will never ever feel that .
your friends , my ex best buddies treat you as their angel !

they protect you , they always help you .
and do you know how much it is hurt when you was saying those words to me ?
you pulled away my hands and you said " thing is already happen , we cannot control it "

but do you even try to control ?
no ! you didn't ! you just leave it there and you did nothing !
I tried to solve this problem & misunderstand are between us but you don't

you can even act like don't see me in class !
how can you act until like this ?
when you do that , do you know you hurt me ?

we were best babe , and now ....
3 months ago ( from July until now ) , you still don't want to forgive me
and I did nothing to you .

we never talk to each other from that day on .
I don't know what you can angry me until so long .
just up to you . I don't even care now ..

because I know you won't be forgiving me .
and why I still wasting my time that waiting you to forgive me .
I said sorry to you and you don't want to forgive me ..

okay fine , I know your friends prunk call me .
but I never play them back , because I know that was your friends .
if they were not your friends , sure I'll play them back .

and girl , don't think I don't know everything .
I just shut the hell up and act like don't know everything .
nowadays you with some of my friends are planning some thing .

yea , I know .
whatever , I don't even care of that .
I only care of the memories that we had .

the only question I don't know is what you can angry me still so long ?!
3 months , you're so pro !
3 months already also cannot finish angry .

haha ! because of you are xiu hei ? ( read in cantonese )
I don't know , your fault :D
hate me ? your fault.

I cannot control the truth ( what I learnt from you !! )
and also I cannot control you to like me .
your choice , I cannot control .

you know , what you did to me .
if I never let the person go and now you'll be so happy ?
you won't !!

fine , I choose to let the person go and that's my choice .
what you want do to the person is your fault .
don't showing off on my front please .

cause you know , I hate those showing off people !
don't let me hate you , cause my life is without enemy .
only your enemy world have me .

( 23.10.2009 ` 2.54am )

Loves ,
Siew Voon .